The day I was born, the day I thought that everything would go right, the day when I had this vision of my birth parents, the day I was rescued by my hero, the day where the tragedy starts, the day where I almost died, that day where I don’t want to remember anything at all. I don’t understand why these visions come back to me and haunt me my whole life. I just wish to do anything I can to take these memories out of my brain and throw them down a well. Deep down inside of me is a mark, and no it’s not birthmark or anything.. It’s a feeling that I get, a vision, a thump feeling and it reminds me of this horrible day. A part of me is missing and I need to find the missing pieces.
The day keeps going on and on and on and o-… I don’t think I should go on. Anyway the day goes on and everything keeps getting worse and I still don’t know how to find any evidence about myself and about this specific day. I sat there thinking and thinking, all of a sudden my Aunt Maggie comes in and asks me if I was okay.”Why would I be okay Aunt Maggie? I just don’t know why I am getting punished from the day I was born. I don’t understand why these visions come to haunt me.”Aunt Maggie replied, “Sweetheart, I wish I could change the past, but I can’t. I don’t know what to do. Just try to move on and if you can’t do that then just pretend.” Pretend… Pretend… Pretend… That word scares me. That word scares me because I can’t pretend, how could you pretend that all of this didn’t happen? Now I’m beginning to find out those missing pieces.
I sneaked into Aunt Maggie’s room while she was gone to get groceries and found my mother’s necklace, her birth certificate, and most of her belongings in a dusty old treasure chest. I started to walk towards the chest to look what was in there and I just teared up and that’s when I got that feeling again. I stared at the things for a while and all of a sudden I hear the car beep. I put the things back and wiped my tears away and sneaked out of Aunt Maggie’s room. As soon as Aunt Maggie opened the door I came to her and helped her out unpacking those groceries, she looked at me and didn’t even say a word. It took me a while to adjust to the silence, but I managed eventually and hoped that she doesn’t find out about me sneaking into her room without permission. Just wishing that the day would end already, but what happens next is my visions keep getting worse and worse as the day goes by and I just collapsed on the floor and almost lost myself there.
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